Can't sleep

I can't sleep tonight. I laid in bed for about an hour, watching the smoke alarm blink and listening to the people above us scoot their chairs annoyingly back and forth across the floor, and the people next to us laugh and laugh and laugh. And I can't help but think that when I was in Italy I didn't kiss you enough, didn't look into your eyes enough, didn't hug you enough. And now I'm here, away from you and can't even begin to describe what I would be willing to give in order to be able to rest my head on your shoulder at this moment.

I pray that God keeps you safe in Kuwait so that I can hug you some day in the future, and that I won't regret for the rest of my life spending all this time at school instead of with you. That I won't regret wasting time on an education that could have waited. That I wont forever feel like I was so selfish as to put you second. I hope you know how much I love you. Good night baby.